August 10, 2011

  • Cute Christianity

    Plethora. 

    By the grace of God, there has been a plethora of new and precious moments in reading, praying, thinking, and running about in my life. They are rising up all around day after day in the flow of life and its been wonderfully synced to the rhythm of the gospel.

    I try to capture these moments in all my finiteness like a boy trying to capture vigorous waves inside of a small soda bottle, but instead of me capturing the waves, I find myself taken captive by [it]. The finiteness of a sinful man surrounded by the work and presence of the holy and infinite God. With finding God, I without a doubt have found EVERYTHING.


     

    Its cute. Yes, cute Christianity. 

    I've been told many times that its so "amazing" how much writing I have in my bible and how great it is that I take it with me wherever I go and how broken and used it is; people would say something along the lines of, "A messed up bible belongs to a man whose life isn't". That may be true but may not, perhaps its messed up because they always throw it in the back of their car after every Sunday and it gets buried in a pile of junk in their car, but that not the point, truth is I have had lots of comments about me and my beloved bible. There was even one time I was alone at Dennys and I overheard a lady comment that she thought it was "cute" that I have my bible with me. And one would think these comments would feed my stupid prideful ego, but they don't. Because I've come to realize that what that lady said was exactly right, it is "cute" that I have my bible with me wherever I go, BUT I believe that its only "cute" that i read it so much and its all beaten up and worn out and marked up by close reading it; it is NOT amazing as others have directly commented to me. I think being in God's Word is to a christian as breathing is to a human being. 

    Personally, I believe we have mislabeled normal Christianity as "radical" and common Christianity as "normal".

    But anyways I don't think outwardly reading my bible is anything amazing, I think its only cute, BUT what I shall boldly declare with passion is what is amazing is when I, a horrible and wicked sinner(by God's grace) actually DO what I read and have been convicted by in my close reading/meditating of His Word thus rightfully bring Him glory. Now [THAT] is truebdetrueb AMAZING! Soli Deo Gloria.


     

    Dear Abba,

    I don't have it all together, I'm not the bible hero in the faith with my cape flowing in the wind as I stand holy over all the city with my bible in my utility belt. I'm not the hero, but every day You give me is filled with wonderful moments and I am just so overwhelmed and in love with You for You are gracious and loving and I am just so stupid. With every moment I am beautifully humbled and brought into a sweeter disposition where my own horrible helpless position is made more and more true and undeniable. I have no excuses. So many things flooding and pressing against my mind and my heart. And I KNOW I'm weak and I see there's still so much more for me to grow in because its NOT about me or even them, its ALL about God! This is my love letter to you. I ache/anguish/yearn so much with so much pleading pleading pleading for it to all "click" inside of others. I'm just another sinful beggar trying to tell other sinful beggars where to get THE food! But even in [that] I am falling short. Oh but what extravagent uncontainable victiorious joy is [THIS] that I KNOW and FEEL and UNDERSTAND that I AM LOVED! Its not about trying harder! Its about being broken and still being LOVED by You! Oh what grace it is that it has all sovereignly "clicked" for me over and over and over and over again!

    So what do I have, if i don't have You(Jesus), I have nothing. BUT because I do have You, I have EVERYTHING,

    Jean Patrick Fisher.

July 27, 2011

  • "Let Him woo you"

    Another date with God tonight.

    Meeting up with Him in my shower at around 10:00 p.m.

    Every fiber of my being is excited to get wooed by my One True Love. 

    "When people come up to me and go, “Christians are 
    hypocrites,” I’m like, “I know, they are. They’re a horrible group of people. How unreal
    is it that their God so ferociously loves them in their failures?” Man, I am a mess still.
    And if you check in with me ten years from now, I’ll still have some issues. So I
    celebrate. Why? Because all my sins were future sins when He went to the cross. And
    the Scriptures say that because I believe and repent, all of my wrongs against the Creator
    God were atoned for on that cross. So I am no longer under wrath but under mercy. That’s the gospel. That’s such good news."
     
    - Matt Chandler

    Let truths like [this] stir your affections for Him and let Him woo you. Soli Deo Gloria.

    Allons-y Maranatha!

July 15, 2011

  • Running About

    My term for "running about" would translate into, A LOT of living, loving, being and doing, talking, ministering, pouring my heart mind and soul out, empathizing, praying, reaching, preaching, teaching, faithfully pointing to the Word, Gospel intentionality, Gospel fluency in the form of horizontal CRELB (Celebrating, Recreating, Eating, Listening, Blessing) in order to NOT WASTE MY LIFE ON TEMPORAL OBSESSIONS, but to dig for treasure. Soli Deo Gloria.

    [[Lots and lots of running about]]

     

     

    Oh don't just watch me running about, run with me.

    Maranatha!

    Further terms this Vorpal Runner has by God's grace assembled.

    CRE = My theology

    Charismatically
    Reformed
    Evangelical

    (Veritcal Relationship) CRElb = My journaling

    Charismatically
    Reformed
    Evangelical
    life
    booking

    (Horizontal Relationships) CRELB = My life on life

    Celebrate
    Recreate
    Eat
    Listen
    Bless

     

July 7, 2011

  • On Forward In Life

    Dear God,

    There is a beating in my heart, it inclines me to sing to You. No, not with song of lyrics and instruments for I am indeed truebdetrueb a musically disinclined psalmist. So what then? How do I sing to You? Is not the answer simple, but with my life? My wholehearted life, from the flow of life, the rhythm and beats the tune and the melody, oh how it may glorify You. You are my One True Love, what else is there for me to dedicate my whole life to? There is nothing else that can surpass Your beauty and worth. I breathe it ALL in and man oh man why can't I find the words I want to say to You. Struggles and trials, refining and strengthening, and a lot of running about, life is beautiful, messy, but beautiful only because the gospel shines so awesomely. Thus, I run about. And its good running; single mindedly running to You. Oh how You captivate me once again. You are my best friend, my rock, my lover, my everything. Where else can I go? Who else could I possibly run to? Myself? Aha no I fail! To a girl? Oh please, no! lol. Truebdetrueb Every fiber of my being knows, although at times to be honest it loses focus, but at the core of it all, when my mind is straight and my focus is right, its knows, IT KNOWS to move forward on in life, in needs to be towards You. Ah where is it? Where is it? Where are the words that I am so desperately and hungrily looking for? Where are they? AAAAHHHHH WHERE ARE THEY!!!

    Oh wait here it is... I LOVE YOU,

    Jean Patrick Fisher

June 30, 2011

  • All That Is Within Me

    Dear God,

    Wow! I just realized that I have not written you a love letter in forever. Sigh. Already in typing this to You, my One True Love, I've started to remember rightly, the precious moments I've had in writing to you. Oh how I miss [this]. Looking back at where I have come from I see that You really have been shaping me into a man of God. Thank You. Thank You. Thank You. I can't say it enough nor express how amazing this growing intimacy with You has been. Even being able to do [this] again, oh what a delight to my soul. You are the delight to my soul. The song isn't Sometimes Whenever, but its Always Forever. Indeed You are my One True Love, always forever. Let this day and every single day that comes be to prove... it is You that holds my heart. All that is within me crying out "Abba!" with such inexpressible joy. Even when I am sorrowful or anguished or empty this joy in You never leaves me. I plead with this joy and meet You whether it be in the shower, the school library, my car, walking around my church building, or even just here; everywhere I go, You are there, never letting go of me. Your love is deeper than the sea. Maranatha! Oh and I thank you for that time at Dennys, reading/enjoying Psalm 63, Marks of the Messenger, Reflections on the Life and Ministry of David Brainerd, and drinking hot coco for several hours. Affections for You were definitely stirred and my soul was refreshed. Twas much needed. And there is just so much more moments to be thankful for. I am glad I started CRElbing, it helps me remember 5% more of these jewels of moments and thoughts with and of You. But I also miss being here, on my faithful xanga, my original CRElb. By Your Grace I just yearn to write You more love letters. My days go by with waking up early in the morning, praying for some minutes, going back to sleep, waking up to pray again, back to sleep, until it is no longer morning and then I arise from my bed. And I start running about, ministering, meeting, discipleshiping, learning, reading, listening, talking, LOTS of talking, CRElbing, thinking, asking questions, having affections stirred, having affections stolen, sinning, falling, messing up, wrestling in the soul, praying, reading manga, fellowshipping, fighting, pressing on, running about some more, digging for treasure, planting seeds, talking and driving to place to place meeting up with people, etc.(not all in that order and some more than others some days) They are by Your grace productive days with You as the sole weight. Single mindedly pursuing You, though not perfectly, but oh praise You for it is truebdetrueb that You can and do use weak, sick, discouraged, beat-down, lonely struggling saints, who cry to you day and night, to accomplish amazing things for Your Glory. I love that about You. This letter is getting long, though its filled with my love - broken and contrite and intensely stirred. Although its been so long since I wrote You a love letter like this, by Your grace its was so natural for me to dive back into it. I'm breathing in this moment. Getting ready to run about for Your Glory again. I'll take this with me as You take all of me. I promise I'll start writing You many more my Love. Even in the mountains and the valleys, no matter the season, I will write to You again. There is so much more I desire to write, both here and in my CRElbs, but there ain't enough time and not enough words for it all. But God, I write this for You. Though I am such a mess sometimes, no, all the time, I write this for You. 

    With robust faith,

    Jean Patrick Fisher

June 26, 2011

June 12, 2011

  • Dates

    Date with God

    Appointed Time = 10:10 pm

    Rules of Engagement

    1. Pursue God Violently and Passionately

    2. In addition to rule one, "by all means possible".

     

    Note: Let God provide the means of grace.

     

    Allons-y Maranatha!

May 31, 2011

  • Dunkin Donuts

    I have a friend who is obsessed and in love with Dunkin Donuts. I didn't know that about him and I was so surprised at how much he was in love with Dunkin Donuts. The way he zealously talked about it and even how he said it was better than Krispy Kream began to spark my curiosity and my appetite. He talked about it with such love and so high a praise that I wanted Dunkin Donuts myself though I have never tried it. Then, we were devastated when we learned that California has no Dunkin Donuts and the closets one is in Las Vegas. I never would have decided to go to Dunkin Donuts on my own whim, but because my friend praised it so much, I just have to try it now for myself. Therefore, we planned a trip to go to Las Vegas just to try out Dunkin Donuts(although we also decided to reach out to people while we are there, for the glory of God :D ) But God used this event to spark questions in my soul. The questions are, "Do people feel the way I felt, when people hear and see our praise and love for Jesus Christ? Are we so crazily obsessed and in love with Him that people around us are beyond curious in the Object of our praise? We say we love Him, but is He seen as surpassingly valuable when we speak of Him who we love the most? DOES OUR TALK ABOUT GOD SALIVATE THE SOULS OF THE PEOPLE AROUND US?" Does it? If it doesn't you NEED to ask yourself, WHY?

     

    Dear God,

    Another summer has begun, my life in Your hands, I am excited for the God glorifying dominoes yet to fall. I want to love You more than I do now, this is my plead, I want to grow closer to You more than I am now and I'll be freakin honest, I struggle. I struggle horribly in my life to keep together this sweet and beautiful relationship that I have with You and NOTHING is greater or more valuable or more precious to me than [THIS]. It is this relationship that I count all other things as loss and in my single minded pursuit of You, in making You the sole-weight of my life I know that there are certain things, certain kinds of movies and music and and YouTube videos and manga and games and other things in my life that don't help me at all to get any closer to You. As a matter of fact some of these things actually steal my affections for You, they ruin [this] and my joy I have for You and it causes me to struggle in staying close to You and I DESIRE earnestly to stay close to You and delight in You and keep enjoying You more and more because I know there is more and more of You to be had. There are things that stir my affections for You and I know there are things that steal my affections for You. Why do I do what I do? So I plead with you Abba, help this wandering heart of mine because the fibers of my being are foolishly prone to wander and leave You whom I love. Continue to refine me and shape me into the man You have planned for me to be, as I have already said, my life in Your hands. Oh I love You because infinitely more You loved me first. Selah. 

    a redeemed sinner,

    Jean Patrick Fisher

May 15, 2011

  • Holy Torment

    "By faith Abraham obeyed when he was called to go out to a place that he was to receive as an inheritance. And he went out, not knowing where he was going."

     the beauty of the gospel illuminated in a mess like me. Selah.

     A feeling of laughing, screaming, and shouting all at the same time while my soul is doing backflips, running its face in the ground, and dancing. haha oh how I love Him.

    Soli Deo Gloria.

     

     

May 12, 2011

  • Temporal Obsessions = Updated

    Temporal Obsessions (Super Rough Draft 2.1b)

    "The riches of all life on earth are like the cost of one night in a cheap and dirty motel, but what precedes the Christian's life after is an everlasting and overflowing bank of great riches."             -Someone who is dead or will one day die soon

    This is a story of three men who received a letter from an awesome King. The letter stated,

    I am the King of kings,
    and I hereby invite you to live with me in my kingdom.
    Hold on to this letter as it will be your ticket to enter my kingdom.
    Until you arrive at my kingdom, may my words guide you to me
    and along with my words, I have given you all that you need 
    for housing, food, and transportation. Therefore,
    please wisely use what I have bestowed to you.
    Thus says the King of kings.

    Along with the letter came a map with the time and date of the boat’s departure to the kingdom and a bag of gold coins for their necessities.

    This is a story. Obviously you know that now, but this is a story of the three men that I saw, who lived seven days of their lives in a motel; waiting seven days for the boat to take them to live with the King of king’s kingdom for the rest of their lives. The three men arrived at the motel and though it was very small, oddly enough it was very busy. It was a plethora of chaos and hullabaloo, with people checking in and out nearly every three seconds. The three men used the King of king’s gold coins in order to pay for their stay.

    The manager of the motel was a very well-dressed man, he bore an appearance that was very sophisticated and he conducted himself in a very attractive manner. He carried a very mesmerizing presence; both his speech and his gestures were all very pleasing yet even more so they were all very distracting. Some of the guests would testify that he looked so very gorgeous that he could pass off as a prince or even an angel. He looked like the ideal man to most guests. Perhaps the only flaw in this man in which all the guests would agree upon would be his smell. Yes, his smell and no, it was not a very horrid smell yet it was not very pleasing smell. The guests would only notice it after checking out from the hotel; the smell would never leave their memories, but no one could really describe it. The best way to articulate his smell would be by saying that it was the feeling of drowning, a very horrible drowning, but in smell form.

    Indeed, this is the motel manager of the grand and luxurious motel also known as Fleeting Springs. It was this man who handed the keys to the three men as well as every guests and as he would lead people into their respective rooms, he told each of the three men, in a very strong inceptive voice, the same words he tells every other guests that comes to stay at Fleeting Springs, “Stay, enjoy, make yourself comfortable, make yourself at home here in Fleeting Springs.”

    Thus, this is where the true story begins because I too, was invited by the King of kings to stay with him in his kingdom for the rest of my life. I too, was once a guest at Fleeting Springs that checked in the same time as the other three men. I too, was told the exact same words from the motel manager and I too, waited for seven days. During those seven days, I observed the three other men because they were doing some rather peculiar things throughout their stay, and at least in my opinion and hopefully yours, it did not make any logical or reasonable sense.

     

    Man #1

    Man #1 He had an unquenchable hunger for pleasure resulting in his constant need for entertainment and pleasure, but no matter what he did, he would eventually end up getting bored again. For him, getting bored was far too easy for him so he pursued many things and bought many things in desperate a hope to cure his boredom. From the very moment he got to his room, he began playing loud music while throwing party after party and he used the gold coins to order the most expensive foods in the area and have them delivered. Every night, he would come home with a new girl that always wore risqué clothing. The loud moans resonating from his room lead me to believe that they were having sex and enjoying themselves to quite the degree. Although, I admit could have been wrong, but I surely doubt that. Then every morning, he could be found naked and knocked out in the middle of motel’s parking lot. This was how Man #1 spent his seven days; he seemed to have really enjoyed himself.

    Man #2

    Man #2 lived normally for the first couple days. Until one night, upon he was on his way back to his room, he saw a man getting mugged from across the street of the motel. Immediately, he ran to his room and hide under his sheets. This event made a significant impact on him as the images of what happened haunted his mind. He was so frightened that he was unable to sleep the whole night. The next day, he bought and installed five new locks on his door, but still the fear kept him awake at night. The day after that, he went on to buy metal bars for the windows, a security system, and a watch dog to protect him. He wanted to be safe from any burglars, murderers, and/or assassins. In the case of any natural disasters that possibly might occur, he bought emergency kits and turned his closet into a mini bunker. He also hired a body guard to watch over him as he sleeps. He made the bodyguard doing everything for him in order that he would never have to leave his room which had turned into his protective fortress. This was how Man #2 spent his seven days; he seemed to have been really safe.

    Man #3

    Man #3 had lots of wants and was very picky; he was perhaps the most active of the three. He was dreadfully discontent with his motel room the moment he entered it. First, it was the furniture, he loathed the furniture and it was because they were not new, they were not matching sets, and they were not brand names. Therefore, he had the hotel manager replace it all with brand new luxurious tempurpedic furniture. Then, he the lights replaced with new fancy lights because he complained that they were too strenuous on his delicate eyes. He went on to update all of the electronics in the room with latest products and replaced the wooden floor with a white shaggy carpet. He also despised taking cold showers and therefore, he got a hot tub installed into his bathroom. The very next day, he exchanged all of the furniture again because he realized they did not match the carpet. Constantly growing dissatisfied with the wallpaper of his room, he would have it replaced three to four times a day. He spent the rest of his days continually changing his room, sleeping in his bed, and relaxing in his hot tub. This was how Man # 3 spent his seven days; he seemed to have been really comfortable.

    These were the three men that I observed. As for me, the manner in which I spent my seven days at Fleeting Springs was very simple, but my manner of living seemed to have bothered the motel manager because he would come up to my room and persistently ask me if everything was okay. He would ask me, “Why aren’t you enjoying yourself or making yourself comfortable or making yourself at home in Fleeting Springs?” and I would logically and reasonably reply with what I believed to be the normal answer which was, “This isn’t my home, I’m only going to be here for a short time, this place is just temporal lodging.” He always gave me a weird look after I said that as if I was some nutcase or lunatic, but I suppose my answer was not the common answer he was used to hearing. In my mind, it made perfect sense, but then again if one were to compare what I was doing with my seven days, to what the other three men were doing, perhaps it would appear as if I were the weird and absurd one because my manner of living was so radically different from the other three. My manner of living was not a common one, but I still believed it to be normal one.

    Seven days passed and I arrived at the pier because that was what the King of king’s letter had instructed me to do. The boat came perfectly on time as stated in the King of king’s letter and I needed to use the remaining gold coins provided by the King of kings in order to pay for the ticket to ride the boat. After paying with all that I had left, I joyfully took my seat inside, eager to meet the King of kings.

    Man #1 ended up arriving at around the same time as I did, but he seemed to have stumbled upon a problem. Overlooking the King of king’s instructions, he had spent all his gold coins indulging in all of these costly pleasures during his stay at Fleeting Springs and as a result, he could not pay for the ticket in order to board the ship.

    Man #2 never arrived; he was too fearful to ever venture outside because he only felt secure inside of his room and ironically as well as tragically, the motel was later bulldozed with him still inside of it. He stayed because he refused to leave the “protection” of his self proclaimed fortress and it ended up killing him.

    Man #3 arrived far too late, it seemed that he must have lost track of the time and was not prepared for the coming of the seventh day. He ended up sleeping in as was his habit of doing because he was so comfortable in his room. So when he arrived at the pier, the boat had already departed. Thus, he was left behind.

    So oddly enough, I was the only one who made it onto the boat. Now year and years have passed and here I am at the King of king's kingdom, enjoying an amazingly abundant life with the King of kings. I find it very funny because when I look back, I cannot even remember all that I had done during those short seven days at the motel.

    “Life is short” this is what I hear a lot of people saying yet I find it such a rare sight to see someone actually living out a life that truly reflects such a statement and here I am now, enjoying for the rest of my life with the King of kings in his kingdom, simply because within those seven days, I lived not for the things that were seen, but for the things unseen. Because I knew, the things that are seen are transient and the things that are unseen are eternal.